you guys...

And you say girls send mixed messages and what not! I swear!

I have a friend, we're currently doing the whole 'Friends with Benefits' (FWB) thing. It's working out great! He's even said, and I quote "Not many people can have the relationship we have; friends and lovers at the same time." I agreed. No emotional attachment whatsoever. Well, Im starting to feel that this friend would make a great boyfriend. But, he and I have talked about how he's not looking for love and that I have other things I want to accomplish before I start a new relationship (In May of 2005 I seperated from my husband). But, there are the small things that he tells me that make me think that maybe he wants a little more too. He's been single for a little over a year and has had other "FWB", though they fizzled out... ours, I believe, is the longest in time. But, the other night we were chatting and he was upset with himself because he says he feels he hasn't been treating me as good as he wants to, and I asked what does he mean by that and he said that he felt that he's let me down because we don't see each other as much as we used to and that work is taking up all his time and that he hasn't treated me as good, as in his standards, as he would like. So, I asked him how could this be possible when he treats me amazingly and I asked him to give me an example of how it could be better and he said I would have to wait and see. The last time he was over, we watched Family Guy together and I layed in his arms and he petted me.. which I adore.. and we didn't have sex or anything, but we touched each other and such. Also, next week, he's taking me out on a 'dinner date' as he called it and that includes a movie. What is the difference between a date and just hanging out together? There are other small things that he has said that has got me wondering... but sometimes I think I am over reading into something that doesn't mean anything... typical girl thing to do, I know, but I pride myself in believing that I am not the typical girl that gets attached to anyone that pays a little attention to me... kinda one of the guys kinda gal, ya know?
Damn hormones...

-mE