Howdy!

Yeah, so I am a regular writer on Yahoo!'s 360 page. Although, I prefer this layout and such, but I keep forgetting this place exsits.

So, about my last entry... things are still confusing with him. Later in November he told me that he started to distance himself from me because he felt we were getting too close and boyfriend/girlfriend. I didn't feel that and told him as such... more of the conversation went on (and I can't remember it because it was over IM) and at last he said that he doesn't want to stop seeing me. I didn't know what to reply. But, after 10 minutes I wrote back and said ok. We haven't talked about 'us' anymore and to my surprise he spent New years Eve with me, though we didn't do anything. He brought food over (to my surprise) and I cooked it. We watched Family Guy and Futurama, fooled around a little and fell asleep. The next morning, fooled around some more... watche d a little porn and I got my feelings hurt. But, I felt I over exaggerated and called on Monday to apologize.

But, there's more with a different person and this one has some history (about a years worth):

RD and I hit it off then he was never online... then he was online again... and then we met in person last December. Then after a few weeks, he was gone... saying he couldn't lie to himself anymore and such. There was a connection with him. He and I... sparks... at least I felt them... and I believe he did too... then... he came back, apologized and we met and had a wonderful night of chatting and the next day he stopped talking to me again... and this time 7 months went by before he contacted me again... and he came over and we talked again and this time we made out and did other things... and it was as if we never stopped seeing each other. I felt something with this guy... even though he is married... but things are preventing him from being happy and lately, he and his wife have discussed the problem and he is allowed to date outside of the relationship... and that's how, recently (as of 01/01/06), I know he's out there. I know I'm leaving a lot out and it probably sounds confusing and all, but I am trying to wonder why I sent him a message when he's hurt me in the past... and will probably hurt me again in the future. Also, it seems that whenever we start talking again, the period is very short (less than 3 weeks) and we go months without talking and then start up again as if nothing happened. Strange.