Update!

Hello! It's been a long while since I last wrote on here. Shit, I even forgot I had a spot on here! Recently, I also found my journal on Livejournal.com! I started that account back in 2003 (and that brought back a lot of memories).

So, there have been A LOT of changes since my last entry. A LOT! And, here is the update:

RD: Yeah, I haven't heard from him since February 2006. We chatted a little, he came over, talked some more, made out again, etc. He even visited me when I worked at Weis. I was really liking him. He made me feel special, which was something Adam never did. But, in the end, he 'broke my heart' and I haven't heard from him since. I would send a message now and then on Y! but never got a reply and I don't think I've sent him anything since Last April or so.

Adam: Well, he moved out in May 2005 (I'm sure I wrote that, I think). After he moved out, we would still talk on the phone every night and he would come down on the weekends to visit. That last about 3-4 months. He was still having difficulty finding and keeping a job. And then, eventually, he began traveling to PA to visit friends. His visits would last longer and longer, and as of Nov. 06, he's been up there since. I recently learned that he has a girlfriend and he hasn't told her that he is married, technically. On the 10th of April, this week, I mailed to him the divorce papers.

Mystery Person: The whole post written on Nov. 10 2005 was about Greg. And, my how things have changed between us. First, our friendship continued to grow strong. In Dec. 05, we started to talk on the phone every night (My aunt passed away due to cancer on Dec 5 2005. She was 44 years old. That whole week, my brother and I stayed with our Mom and that whole week, Greg would call me every night to see how things were and that is how we started talking every night), which made our friendship even stronger. I'll admit that there have been times that I would start to have feelings for him, but I would quickly stop the progression of those feelings because I didn't want to be in a relationship and nor did he. Greg and I did a lot of things together. We went to the JSOH Air Show in May 06, we went to the National Zoo in Aug 06, we talked about moving in together and even moving to Washington State! And all that time I was pregnant with his baby and didn't even know it! Yes, you read that correctly. Greg and I had a baby girl. Her name is Amelia. She was born on January 12, 2007 at 7:59am. I didn't learn that I was pregnant until the week after Thanksgiving. A lot of emotions were going threw Greg and I about this new discovery and we believed the best possible solution was to put Amelia up for adoption. I told my Mom that I was pregnant after my first ultrasound. I felt she deserved to know that she was a Grandma. My mom was so excited to hear that I was pregnant and even more excited to hear that my due date was January 23, 2007! I did tell my Mom that Greg and I felt the best thing for Amelia was to put her up for adoption and my Mom couldn't believe what I was saying. She went on and on saying that having a baby will enhance my life, it will make me have a purpose and much more; especially so since I was told by doctors that I wouldn't be able to conceive on my own due to PCOS. We talked about it often yet tried to live a 'normal' life before she was born. Easier said than done.

In anyevent, once Amelia was born, Greg and I decided to keep her and things have been great. Greg and I are together, as of February 8, 2007. It feels so good to be able to tell him how I feel about him and to also allow my feelings grow and florish for him. And, I can honestly say that I am in love with Greg. I finally know what it feels like to be in love with someone and this feeling is amazing! I constantly tell Greg what and wonderful person he is, how happy he's made me, how special he maks me feel and all other praises. And, he tells me the same.

I'm going to write more, but in 'chapters'. So, keep checking back!